Is it me or does time go so much faster, we don't have time to do the things we love. Or is it that I am not making the time for the things I love doing? I think sometimes that it's all going to end I won't have it finished. So many started projects so much lost interest in them. What do you do? Start something new. I keep telling myself that I am going to start working on the website and I am going to work on writing the blog and I don't. I would love to kill my TV and my computers so many distractions from what I find most joyful.
It's not that I don't spend most of my time down in the studio it's that I spend my time: trying to get inspired to work on that quilt that I designed and wanted to teach, trying to work on those things that someone has asked me to do for them. I want to do them, just not now. I want to have 100 things going at one time and get them all done. All the idea's that dance and spring through my mind. The things that give my soul joy.
I am reminded of the line from the musical Rent "the opposite of war isn't peace it's creation", I am at war with time and time seems to be at war with me. Creation gives me peace and joy, it makes me smile. I know that I take things I have done into work and show them, R thinks it's for approval, although approval is nice and I don't always get it, I am doing it to say "Look at this Look at what I did I think its cool, amazing, awesome and sometimes awe inspiring. I do it because I have not given up on the dream I have dreamed of since I was young. Sometimes the only dream I remember from being young, that I want to be an ARTIST.
I want to say here I am I have made it, I am known well would rather my work be known. So I never stop believing in me in my abilities and in us R and I because as I told him on the day I said for ever "together we can do anything".
